Siege by Sarah Mussi

16 year old Leah is counting down the minutes she has left in detention, when all of a sudden a gang of Year 9’s calling themselves ‘The Eternal Knights’ burst in and shoot the teacher. Dead. Terrified for her life, she runs and hides up in the ceilings and air vents. As she waits, a multitude of thoughts occupy her mind. Could her brother even be involved in this? What would happen to her sister if she died?

Suddenly, she can’t stay trapped any longer. She has to save people, help out, and find out who... or what, is at the heart of all this. So she jumps.

Right into the middle of the gym, where students are being held hostage.

And suddenly, all eyes, and guns, are on her.

Thrown in headfirst from the start, this book has one of the most gripping and intense openings ever. This is the only ‘school shooting’ story I have ever read, and it didn’t disappoint.  Fast paced, clever and full of action, I didn’t want to put it down for fear of missing something important, and there were so many moments where my heart absolutely stopped.

Our main character, Leah was brave and utterly selfless.  I definitely wouldn’t have been as level headed as she was in such an adrenaline-fuelled situation like that. Her mother has severe depression and cannot physically drag herself out of bed some days, so the maternal role regularly lands on her. As the oldest child of three, she, unquestioningly and without complaint, cares for both her siblings We slowly watch as Leah battles with the idea that her own little brother could be one of the gunmen down on the ground. Would he actually shoot his own sister if it came to it?

There was also a huge complex dystopian aspect to this book. All schools are privatised, although extremely underprivileged children go to free academies, which Leah attends regardless of her intelligence. These buildings go into ‘lockdown’ during the day to stop kids going in or out, essentially trapping everyone in the school for the duration of the shooting. 

I did feel like the last third of the book was a slight disappointment however. The whole ‘big brother’ government involvement was only briefly touched on, and I feel like the overall story would have worked so much better if the motivation for the shooting had just been a group of teenage boys messing around and wanting a bit of attention. Saying that, the ending was so perfect and it left a gaping hole in my heart. Definitely recommended.

Unmarry Me by Nicki Reed

“Mark and I are divorcing for marriage equality. We feel that we can’t be married whilst other people in love can’t.”

Since her sister has been refused the right to marry her girlfriend, Ruby wants to make a difference and raise awareness to the inequality gay couples face. She won’t be getting remarried until everyone can. 

The premise behind this novel was brilliant. It was wonderful to read about a straight character that actually cared about LGBT+ rights, and the publicity and sheer volume of people the campaign reached was impressive and wonderful.

I am nearly a year into a relationship with a girl who is also my best friend. I am very lucky to live in a country where gay marriage is completely legal, but its important to remember it’s taken us until 2015 to acknowledge a homosexual marriage with the same recognition as a ‘traditional’ heterosexual marriage. How and why has it taken us so long to reach this point when everyone, no matter his or her gender, is human and capable of loving whomever they choose?

Being fake ‘separated’ put a strain on Mark and Rubys relationship, and some of the issues they face are very similar to that which long distance couples like myself face. Having a little experience under my belt means I would definitely have handled some of the situations a little differently. The fact that they don’t live together anymore does not mean they should stop talking about everything, and secrets can absolutely ruin a relationship, but these characters have flaws and are well developed.

Of course, there were characters who were against the entire ‘unmarry me’ scheme, believing it to be unnecessary and unlawful.  I was a little surprised with the overwhelming negativity and clichéd statements reaching through some of the pages, with speeches about how gay couples simply deny a child both a father and mother, are generally promiscuous, and how they ruin the sanctity of marriage, but Rubys responses and pure dedication to the cause is strong, meaning it wasn’t all for nothing.

I would personally have loved to read more from the lesbian couples perspective. I understand having a hetero-normative narrator makes it a more relatable book to the general public, but with the strong LGBT themes it would have been great to know more about the girls relationship with each other.

Overall, this is a book that could easily be made into a relatable, humorous romantic comedy film. I received an ARC e-reader copy of this book from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. 

Everything Everything by Nicola Yoon

Spoiler warning! This book has a major plot twist in the last chapter which is discussed here, so please don’t read ahead if you don’t want to be spoiled.

Maddy is allergic to the world. She hasn’t left her house in years, and her world consists of two people, her mum and her nurse, Carla. She doesn’t have an ounce of selfish ‘why me’ angst in her though, and lives a comfortable happy life of reading, working through online school courses, and movie nights with her mum.

Until Olly moves in next-door, and Maddy starts chatting online to him. He opens up an entire new world to her, and she sees what she’s been missing out on. Suddenly, the quiet life she’s living isn’t enough anymore. She wants to experience the outside world, with him by her side.

I started this novel with such high hopes. It was wonderful to actually relate to a teenage protagonist who had a chronic illness and lived a somewhat similar life to me. I also loved the layout of this novel. Incorporated within the story were graphs, lists, poems and art, adding such a unique personal level of creativity and insight into Maddys mind, and the chapters were short, keeping you racing through the pages quickly. I could look past the insta-love and a few illness-related plot holes I noticed, as it was just so good to finally read what felt like a wonderful book!

“My birthday is the one day of the year we’re both most acutely aware of my illness… another year of missing all the normal teenager things… another year of my mom doing nothing but working and taking care of me.”

Full of quotes that I thought I related to, you can understand my frustration when I found out the plot twist. In last few chapters, you discover that Maddys entire illness was simply made up. Her mother was suffering from a mental illness herself, and was trying to keep her daughter close after losing both her husband and son in a car accident. I felt my heart sink when I realised the easy way out was being taken. The romance again became the main focus and it became just another YA contemporary.

Three things authors do in novels with ‘sick’ main characters that annoy me.

-       Have the character die a tragic but martyred death

-       Have the character be cured and go back to living a normal life

-       Have the illness not actually exist in the first place.

Reading book after book with endings like these, it reinstates a negative feeling that a sick persons story is only ‘marketable’ if there is a dramatic ending to it. As a girl with an illness that is not terminal, but who will probably never be cured either, I wish there were more novels out there that illustrate living a fulfilled life alongside having an illness. Maybe this is just a final push to write my own novel. They always say to pen the book you want to read!

How To Be Brave by E. Katherine Kottras

Georgias whole world is turned upside down when her mum passes away, and when the weight of both her own and her fathers grief falls heavy on her shoulders, she decides to live by the last few words written on paper by her mum. 

"Go do anything you like - in fact, do everything. Try it all once.... Be brave."

She writes a bucket list of 15 things she has always wanted to do but never had the courage to before, and slowly learns that new experiences and stepping out of her comfort zone isn't actually as frightening as she first thought. 

Books based around lists really appeal to me, and 'How To Be Brave' didn't disappoint. Every one of us has felt like an outsider at some point, so Georgia was a relatable and powerful female protagonist. I immediately felt like she was a best friend I'd had since primary school. She always remained so positive all the time, and always looked for the good in any situation. When asked to describe herself in one word, she responded with 'Happy'. I also loved her character development. Going from being quite lost in life, she found a passion and talent for art, just like her mother. I absolutely agree that art can change your life. It gives you a purpose, a wonderful creative outlet, and an instant mood booster. 

The only reason I didn't give this book the full 5 stars was because I personally felt there were a lot of stereotypical YA elements. For example, mean cheerleaders, the depressed 'emo' teen, and a perfect and handsome romantic interest, almost to the point of being unrealistic. He just happened to have an ill father with the same specific kidney issues as her mum, was the only one who got her obscure quirky references, and they instantly fell in love, which felt impersonal and rushed rather that full of chemistry and romance. 

There are so many ways to be brave that don't include simply getting high, skipping school, and, skinny-dipping. I agree that having fun and making new friends is important, and all characters need flaws to learn valuable life lessons, but there could have been some deeper messages throughout the book describing how many other ways there are to be brave, for example, saying yes to things you wouldn't normally, standing up for someone, facing problems instead of running away, and asking for help.

However, the primary focus on empowering female friendships and Georgias self improvement more than made up for these few issues I would have changed.

Overall, I would absolutely recommend this to anyone who likes easy, heartwarming contemporaries. I received an ARC e-reader copy of this book from NetGalley in return for an honest review. 

Stolen - A Letter to My Captor By Lucy Christopher.

Sixteen year old Gemma is kidnapped from Bangkok airport and flown halfway across the world. When she awakes, she finds herself in the hands of a man named Ty, in a desolate desert spanning miles and miles around her. He doesn't want to kill her. All he wants is for her to love him. He's been stalking her since she was 10, and planning their new life together the entire time. She has no chance of escape.

Documenting the bizarre months they spend together, this book shows how the lines between love, lust, loneliness and fear blur together when you live in isolation. Gemma starts off hating him and feeling utterly miserable.  

  

As the book goes on however, I personally couldn't help but go through Stockholme Syndrome with Gemma. Her curiosity about his motives encourages her to start talking, and I began feeling sympathy for him. Hearing about the struggles Ty faced in the past shouldn't make you feel any compassion towards him, considering what he did to Gemma, but somehow, you get sucked into his world and you begin to feel like you understand him. He truly believes he is saving her and giving her a better life, showing her things she would never have seen before, and he never once actually hurts her. The emotional pull you feel towards Ty should feel wrong, but he deserves happiness, like everyone does. 

“Lets face it, you did steal me. But you saved my life too. And somewhere in the middle, you showed me a place so different and beautiful, I can never get it out of my mind. And I can't get you out of there either. You're stuck in my brain like my own blood vessels.” 

Don't get me wrong, I completely understand that what he did was utterly unacceptable. But you can see that in his own twisted way, he loved her. She attempted to escape on more than one occasion, but each time she ended up close to death and Ty rescued and nursed her back to health every time. Whether she felt an attachment to him simply as a coping mechanism, a survival instinct and a basic need for human interaction, or whether under different circumstances they could perhaps have actually worked out as a couple, she begins to connect with him. The character development in this is mind-blowing.

I won’t spoil the ending for you, but even now, weeks after I turned the last page, I don’t know how I feel about it. This book will play with your mind and stick with you long after you have finished it. Definitely recommended!