Saturday 31 August 2013

The Bucket List

Inside this notebook is a list of everything I wish to do/make/see/achieve in my lifetime. I first started writing this on the 3rd February 2013, after being inspired by the movie 'The Bucket List'…


  1. Visit America
  2. See the ball drop on New Years Day in Times Square
  3. Be an extra in a movie
  4. Be on the front page of a newspaper
  5. Audition to be on the west end
  6. Get in a taxi and yell 'Follow that Car!' 
  7. Take kissing pictures in a photo booth 
  8. Spend a day watching disney films
  9. Fall in love
  10. Get married
  11. Have children
  12. Go on a road trip
  13. Play messy twister
  14. Get a Starbucks Coffee with my name on and Instagram it
  15. Donate my hair to make a wig for a child with cancer 
  16. Walk on the beach at midnight
  17. Learn to play an instrument
  18. Get completely drunk
  19. Own 10x pairs of heels
  20. Become an organ donor
  21. Volunteer at Birmingham Childrens Hospital
  22. Skinny Dip
  23. Do yoga 
  24. Raise over £2500 for charity
  25. Raise over £5000 for charity
  26. Cook Mum dinner with no help
  27. Do something special for my parents
  28. Watch the sun set and rise on the same day
  29. See a Broadway show
  30. Read the complete works of Shakespeare
  31. Send a message in a bottle
  32. Save a life
  33. Change a life
  34. Learn to juggle
  35. Spend a day baking
  36. Make a tye dye t-shirt 
  37. Create melted crayon art
  38. Bake a rainbow cake
  39. Finish my Wreck this Journal
  40. Kiss someone at midnight on NYE
  41. Watch 5+ movies in one night (not day!) 
  42. Witness a birth
  43. Learn British Sign Language
  44. Learn to do the splits
  45. Read all the books on my bookshelf
  46. Own a polaroid camera
  47. By a baking cookbook
  48. Dye my hair
  49. Eat a pint of ben and jerries by myself
  50. Have a scary movie marathon
  51. Visit Disney World, Florida
  52. Learn to knit
  53. Audition to be in a sitcom
  54. Be as half a good mother to my children as my mother is to me
  55. Meet TSK
  56. Watch a TSK show live
  57. Go to the HP studio tour
  58. Try butterbeer
  59. Own a pair of designer heels 
  60. Take part in a flash mob
  61. Go to a movie by myself
  62. Finger paint 
  63. Say yes to everything for a day
  64. Watch a meteor shower
  65. Go on a blind date
  66. Donate blood
  67. Visit Australia
  68. Own a beautiful second hand classic bike
  69. Teach my baby BSL
  70. See the mona Lisa
  71. Fly first class
  72. Own a pet
  73. Have a house with a reading room/ library
  74. Win an acting award 
  75. Try s'mores
  76. Jump into a pool fully clothed
  77. Make a glitter jar
  78. Complete a sketchbook
  79. Own all the Keri Smith books
  80. Finish a journal
  81. Finish an art journal
  82. Finish my WTJ 
  83. Finish The Pocket Scavenger
  84. Write a novel
  85. Write a short script
  86. Finish my novel writing notebook
  87. Finish a complete colouring book
  88. Call hogwarts on 07814 524077
  89. Own a pink sewing machine
  90. Leave a waiter my number on a napkin 
  91. Dance outside at midnight
  92. Have a massage
  93. Have a manicure
  94. Have a pedicure
  95. Stargaze
  96. Start a book club

Friday 30 August 2013

Good days/bad days...


Recently, I've been having more and more flare ups that are so bad that I'm usually sick with the pain, and then just sleep all day and all night. Yesterday was one of those days. I knew it was going to be rough as I was teary all morning from the effort of just getting out of bed and getting washed and dressed. I tried to read, go into the kitchen for a change of scenery, but was snappy and frustrated all morning. I'm never angry at people, I am only angry at the pain… and my sister usually happens to be in the same room as I am, so unfortunately she gets the brunt of it. Sorry Daisy! 

After a long time with a chronic illness, I've found I have a selection of things that make bad times more bearable. One of those things is my Mog. It's amazing how instinctively animals know how you're feeling, and she was the only thing that made me smile yesterday. Purrs are medically known to reduce blood pressure, reduce stress, and relax you, and that's definitely true. 
The day we first got Mog
Mog's a fluent reader of course..
Other little things that make life easier/perk me up when I have a bad day
  • Porridge, with peanut butter and bananas
  • Comfy pillows
  • A cold facecloth on my forehead
  • Lots of water or summer fruit juice
  • Plenty of painkillers
  • Dvds
I've learnt, after a long time, that its okay if the only thing I did today was get out of bed. If I didn't leave the house, thats fine! If it takes strong painkillers to get rid of the pain, then that's what I need to take. There is no point in feeling guilty about being 'unproductive' some (well, most!) days… because  health always comes first... It's taken me a long time to learn that, but I think it's finally kicked in. Worrying doesn't get you anywhere. Instead of focussing on what I can't do, I focus on what I can do.

Wednesday 28 August 2013

Fundraising Extravaganza!

This Saturday, at 7:30pm, a group of my best friends are taking to the the stage at Dunchurch Village Hall, in an evening of song, dance, music and drama, all in aid of the TSSS.


Every year I take part in a local pantomime, latest performances being Alice in Wonderland and Sleeping Beauty, where I have met some of my best friends. A few weeks after the final show had taken place this year, Suzy and I were talking about what we were going to do next, and somehow came up with the idea of directing and performing a whole charity showcase. So… we began organising, booking, casting, and getting funding. 

Suzy and I
Boy, we had no idea what we had gotten ourselves into. A 17 and 19 year old directing a bunch of your best friends in a showcase where everyones doing something different…. we learnt a lot lets say. For the first few rehearsals I'd managed to get myself in hospital, so Suzy was brilliant in pulling everyone together and getting the vital ideas we needed to take the first steps to putting on a show. Excitement quickly began rising as proper rehearsals began, scripts handed out, and songs and monologues chosen.

Holly also came up with the idea of going on a sponsored walk for more funding, so on the 22nd June 2013, everyone walked 10 miles for Turners. They're all mad. I obviously sat in the car with Mum, driving alongside them for a while, and played very loud, inspirational music out the window to them to boost morale… I was very proud of them all for finishing. We celebrated with cakes and sandwiches, and somehow most of them also managed to pluck up the energy to be manic on the park equipment at Draycote Water…. I don't know how they did it. 

The mad lot, getting ready to walk 10 miles! 
A few more hospital admissions later, I realised it wasn't fair on the others if I was still acting in the show, my health wasn't great, I'd missed so many rehearsals and I was unsure if I'd be actually able to perform on the night, so I quickly cast understudies and took a back seat, watching over the rehearsals I could attend, meeting up for updates and getting texts from a rather stressed Suzy!! She became chief director/organizer/do-gooder, and the show wouldn't be happening if not for her… Even with many ups and downs in rehearsals, (including breaking chairs from the church hall in a rather vicious game) I knew it would come together in the end… 

We also managed to get in touch with Helen Dulcamara, an experienced director whom I know as I worked with her when I was in 'The Crucible' and 'The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie' at Rugby Theatre. We got her involved, and she helped polish individual performances and pull the show together, which we are very grateful for. She also gave us the idea of involving the local dance school, CATS, and have the children from there performing, which I'm so looking forward to watching. 

The wonderful cast (nearly everyone!)
With a final dress rehearsal on Friday night, I can't believe its so close! From an idea concocted in my living room months ago, to what it's become today…. So many hours of hard work has gone into this show, and there are only 20 tickets left, so if you haven't already, I suggest you book them ASAP, as there's no guarantee they'll be there on the night!! Email: tsss-fundraiser-enquiries@hotmail.com to book. They cost £5, and ALL profits go to the Turner Syndrome Support Society, a charity incredibly close to my heart, as you all know.

Enjoy watching the teaser trailer, and be prepared, its going to be a fab night! 

Tuesday 27 August 2013

Wales Wales Wales!

So, The Cubitts managed to go on an actual day trip yesterday....
Waking up at 6:30am (I had forgotten that time existed - I definitely looked like an extra from the Walking Dead...), we packed the car with a picnic, and headed off to the beach in Wales. It was gloriously hot and sunny, we all got some much needed Vitamin D, and I read half a book overlooking the sparkly sea.

Dad was in charge of pushing me around the cobbled streets in the town, and I probably would have had less of a headache walking than being in that rickety wheelchair! I picked up some cross stitch kits, a craft I've never done before but am looking forward to starting. I also bought a new book... Not that I haven't got a whole shelf and an e-reader full of new novels to read already... But who can resist the temptation a second hand bookstore? Not me anyway. Books let me escape to other worlds, even when I have to stay where I am.


It was lovely to get out, and I was flat out asleep as soon as I got home, exhausted but happy.

Which one of us has HAD brain surgery, and which one of us NEEDS brain surgery?!
Today has actually been an ok day, pain wise. I've been attempting to make friendship bracelets, and covering my earphone wires with embroidery thread so they don't tangle (pictures will be up soon), and Daisy also made me a smoothie, which was deeelish. I'm going back into college on Thursday, to see if it's okay for me to restart my Performing Arts course. As most of you know, I was in and out of hospital so much last year that I didn't attend college for more than a few months in total. Obviously, that means I didn't complete the year, so will need to restart it again, and in the last few months I've been so sedentary with headaches and dizziness, that I don't know whether I will have the physical stamina to participate fully. However, if I don't do Acting this year, I will do a less intense textiles or art course instead, and when my health gets back on track, I shall of course return!

I think it's so important to appreciate the little things that happen everyday, so I am going to document  things I am grateful for, daily, whether in my journal or blog, and I really encourage you to do the same. In the last few days, my list goes as follows:

  • Mums incredible Sunday roast
  • Anti sickness medication
  • Being on the beach with my family in the heat
  • Having colour in my cheeks finally, so I don't look ill
  • The smell of a 'new' second hand book
  • Smoothies
  • Daisy for making me laugh with her completely random videos she's recorded (Check my Facebook if you haven't seen them!)
Fish and Chips from the chippy tonight, with a side of painkillers, anti sickness and the DVD 'Driving Miss Daisy'… 
<3

Saturday 24 August 2013

Welcome!


I’m Meg, and I’m 17 years old. I love acting, reading, art, textiles, tea, cosy jumpers, and my cat. I’ve always been small. But once upon a time, I was tiny.

Me aged 7 (left) and younger sister Daisy

I was born with a condition called Turner Syndrome. This is a chromosome abnormality, which only affects girls. Two main features of Turners is short stature and infertility. I took daily growth hormone injections when I was younger to boost my height, which were a pain in the bum - literally, until I learnt to do them myself in my legs. After 5 years, I grew from 3ft 9 to 4ft 11 – one of my proudest achievements.

I was later also diagnosed with hydrocephalus and idiopathic intracranial hypertension, a condition that causes too much fluid on my brain, squashing it and giving me pretty much constant headaches. To try and drain the fluid and stop the headaches, I had a shunt fitted in 2011 . This is a tube from my brain to my stomach to drain some of the fluid – my very own plumbing. And I occassionally become a real life teletubbie- to monitor the condition I sometimes have had to have a bolt fitted onto my head, with a small wire going into my brain, which is connected to a monitor.

 
First Shunt Surgery 2011
ICP bolt - with my beautiful Mama



























Since then I’ve also been diagnosed with P.O.T.S, a condition which affects my life in the way that I get very lightheaded and dizzy when I stand up, as my heart rate increases pretty dramatically. Treatment so far has been lots of fluid and salt – medically advised to have lots of mcdonalds chips!

Being a teenager with chronic illnesses means I live your life differently to most other people my age, but it doesn’t mean I don’t live it to the full. I have good days, okay days, and bad days, but I spend a lot of time resting at home. I used to thrive on being busy, going everywhere and doing absolutely everything, however, with Doctors recommendations, recently I’ve slowed my life down, but that doesn’t mean I’m sitting alone in my room watching rubbish daytime tv every single day (although I have watched more than my fair share of deal or no deal!). I have begun to find my creative side, and really enjoy drawing, painting, sewing, knitting, and making things, and have found its just as satisfying as going out. Taking it easy means I can lay in bed on my bad days and knit, with a few new movies and a cup of tea, or on good days I can sit downstairs and have friends over, or go out shopping in my wheelchair for a few hours! Having multiple health issues have given me an appreciation for life and has made me realise what’s actually important to me.

The Turner Syndrome Support Society is a vital support network for my family and I, offering friendship and understanding. They hold open days and conferences, which mean we have the opportunity to meet other families who are touched by the condition. Two years ago, I was asked to become the teen representative for them, meaning I embody every teenager with TS in England. It is an honour, and I decided to take this as an opportunity to give something back to the society raising not only funds, but awareness of this rare condition. My support system is vast, and their willingness, enthusiasm and ideas have made all the difference. Every penny raised for the society is much appreciated, if anybody wished to donate, my justgiving page is justgiving.com/meg-cubitt. Thankyou!

Me and my wonderful Turner girlies 

This is not a story warranting sympathy, but of optimism and hope.  I hope you’ll enjoy reading about my daily life, as I enjoy living it. <3